Sunday, August 30, 2009

Make Time

I was 16, working multiple jobs, in college, and loving life. A bit overwhelmed at how much was on my shoulders, and the competing priorities, I sought the advice of a trusted youth leader, who sat me down and said, "Crista, you will always find time to do the things you really want to do."

So, for years I have attempted to prioritize my responsibilies knowing that I can always find the time to do the things I really want to do. And perhaps there was a time in life when that was true, when I was that 16 year old. Now, a lifetime later, my passion for life has not abated, but my time has eroded and I find that I do not find time to do the things I want to do, because the things I have to do take over the clock.

I want to write - clearly this has not been a priority, given the last time I blogged. Poetry, stories, blog, the world of words daily entices me, and I resist.

I want to watch interesting movies, old ones, new ones; I like the history, the story, the technology use.
I want to listen to more music that I don't know and repeat music that I already love.
I want to dance and sing.
I want to do more yoga and run.
I want to send real birthday cards out to my family and friends.
I want to travel to exotic places, and yet, I want to stay home and do nothing.
I want to eat amazing food and learn to cook it too.
I want to do really well at my job - encourage, inspire, and make the school better.
I want to be a good stepmom, wife, daughter, sister, friend.

A bit of mind rambling - obviously, there is a much longer list.

What I really want is to change the world and make it a better place in my own way.

Somehow laundry, bills, and the "real world" get in the way. Ah, the common struggle.

But I'll keep trying to make the time to do the things I want.

1 comment:

  1. There is too much to want (I'm one endless mess of desire) but it's all worth fighting for. Excellent entry, my dear. I miss you and want to share more of the "more" with you.